14 hours, 30 minutes and 1000 kilometres later... (Time, distance and tears)

I find myself back in the comfort of the familiar.

Everything’s changed,

Yet it’s all different.

I’m falling on a cushion;

And also, grating my flesh on a rock.

I must have been awake

But part of it seemed too good

The rest was pain I wish to forget.

I find myself standing in front of the mirror;

Surprised by my own smile,

And scared by the bruises over my heart.

Can the same breath contain joy and pain?

Can the same thing bring happiness and sorrow?

I asked, I wanted to know.

Now that I know,

Part of me wishes to withdraw the request.

Truth is freedom;

Help my unbelief

As I struggle with it.

I find myself thinking;

Of the one that I left and the one that I met

The first, I know is a story that’s ended

Yet the lashes of pain continue

The second, I know, is a mirage

But my pounding heart is no illusion

I find myself at the window;

Standing and staring.

The thickness is filled by distance, time and tears

They bring me back;

This time they remind me of You.

You’ve brought me thus far

I trust that we can endure, no, celebrate more

Together.

I find myself drowning, again

In You